Submitting Myself Yet Again
... to the grind of sending out the manuscript, fine-tuning the tortuous query letter and synposes, and sifting through rejection letter after rejection letter.
Lightning Tree will be coming out soon. I feel so good about that. As a part of my contract, CFI has first refusal rights on my next manuscript. Well, because my next (finished, rewritten) manuscript was The PIllars of Helantopolis, I had to send them that one, but I'll admit I was pretty sure from the get-go that they'd reject it.
And I got lots of feedback from them: They love the story, the characters... my editor sent me a suggestion for a plot fix which I incorporated. But ultimately, yes, they rejected it due to content--violence and some mild sexuality, including the portrayal of same-sex relationships (not in gratuitous detail.)
I'm not resentful or even uspet in any way. CFI is, after all, a publisher that caters to religious conservative types. And the acquisitions editor was so wonderful about it. She told me that my story has tremendous potential--I believe those were her exact words :D
I wrote to some people I know in the LDS arts world about where to send the story next, and discovered that there really isn't a place for this story in the LDS world at all; if CFI rejected it, well, then everybody else is going to reject it as well (for the same reasons.)
So here I am, wading into deep waters. I spent all day yesterday on Writers' Market website reading through descriptions of literary agencies and categorizing them into tiers based on who I'd most want to accept my manuscript. And I spent all day today sending various queries, summaries and manuscript portions to those in my "first tier," ie, those I'd most love to take on my story.
And weepy, and defensive (I guess it never changes, does it.)
Oh, how I want this story to be read by millions of people.
I have been writing this story since I was fifteen years old. This might be the fifth complete rewrite (as in, starting from square one and a blinking cursor in a blank word processor document). This story is why I became a serious writer. I've taken it to critique groups, sent it to several readers and incorporated their suggestions... I've rewritten, and rewritten and rewritten... I've done the best I can... now it's just tenacity. And endurance. And hopefully, divine intervention :)